I'm going crazy, what with the lack of symptoms. C'mon folks, lay some symptoms on me so I can know this is a potentially "real" pregnancy.
And I have that same feeling I had last time, which is, if this pregnancy is NOT going to continue for some reason, I wish it would just end now, before I become even more attached to the idea of it, and it would give us more time to conceive another baby before I turn 40. Just shit or get off the pot, pregnancies. Honestly.
If for some reason this pregnancy doesn't work out, I feel like I want to do IVF with PGD for the next one, since presumably, we're conceiving children wtih genetic defects that result in miscarriage. And I don't want to do that route. No, I want this pregnancy to work out.
I talked with an acupuncturist this morning and she pissed me off. I had called her a week ago to schedule an appointment, and she's been calling back relentlessly. I haven't called her back because I'm experiencing what feels like an exceedingly precarious pregnancy, and I no longer need any fertility treatments, at least for the time being.
And she was very unhelpful, as she recommended I use Chinese medicine to get this pregnancy to continue. Her insinuation was that if I don't use Chinese medicine, I'm not giving this baby every chance I can. I mean, for Christ's sake, lady, you've clearly never had a miscarriage.
I don't know what to do. When I take a walk, I feel better, my head is cleared, but then the asinine acupuncturist told me that the best thing I can do is get as much rest as possible throughout my first trimester. I didn't even bother telling her I have a toddler. What was the point? Caring for Chebbles and "getting rest" are not commensurate activities.
OK, I'm off to Google Chinese medicine and miscarriage.
